Fuzzed Up

I am like a walking zombie now. Just slept at 12 and woke up at around 5 plus. Pulled myself out of the bcos of the speech. my brain now has a mental block bcos of the diorganised stuff in my brain. arghh ! * bangs head on the wall*
it has been a hetic two weeks , been having either sci rehearsals or sec 4 rehearsals. This is a dreadful monotony just to get things right. repeating of the same old things and the frustration of the absentees and things not getting done is making feel that the anger is built up. i dont just scold that person bcos he is late once but bcos he didnt come the other time. and its still fuming up in me. the thought goes like this , how can u be so irresponsible ? i kinda hate the insults that people hurl at me , especially since i was just doing my job. ya i maybe incompetent and thanks for spelling it out for me. if i ever become successful , ur the one who is going to cower in fear. ( blah blah blah ....) sorry i had to get that out. kinda only remember that revenge will just incur more revenge
i am kinda of nervous and uptight bcos of the sci coming up. last show to put up , must do it well. its really irritating that some people just dont understand that after 3 years , this is really an important part of their lives too or maybe they are just not that part of the familiy.
ok better go back to the speech or i would really continue with the rant.

A post dedicated to that specific you out there

This is more of the once in a blue moon occurrence. There are several things going through my mind. One of it would the exams that is troubling many teens. however , since many of my papers are more or less completed and that the last three papers are paper1s. it is not a pressing matter so i am throwing it to back of my mind. The next thing is about ge. since today is a cool off day and since that someone is going to post on this topic , i am leaving this topic out and not vent my anger on it.
Lastly, would be more of the council stuff. Yes , my life is really boring. there is only pap , government , studies , family and also council things for me to ponder about so i am pretty boring man.
Council is preparing for its annual big event ; SCI. ummmmm , there are several things i would need to prepare as the head councillor. one would be my speech. i think this year , i would ask miss soh to do it together with me last year. for those who were there to witness the take over last year would know the epic ending. Onward and Persevere ! anyway , other than that i was thinking a lot on how i would like it to be . maybe its all this thinking that made me really stress...... haiz , many things that i would like to say but there is no one to go to .... But i hope that everything it would be smooth ......... a simple yet a herculean task.

Prom night

Yesterday night , was really hectic in the start and peaceful at the end.
Wore a white shirt with jeans coupled with a black vest. i headed towards khatib MRT . i was walking towards the same spot to take a seat when i heard someone called my name. Turned around and i saw Nicole ! She was wearing a black shawl with a pinkish dress. She had like cheeks that were really pink. If it was not for the shawl she would have been totally different shades of pink. both of us were waiting when someone came. actually it was Hazirah but we didnt notice her until she sat right next to nicole. dressed lavishly , her hair was done beautifully. i presumed by the hairstylist with lots of hairspray and glitter. before long the last person came as i AMA was held up. Rachel came from the direction of the overhead bridge and she was dressed in white. even her shawl was white. Anyway she was complaining about contact lens dropping out and being too dry to put in. we took to bras basah station and we were like studying the map like nerds. It was pouring and i remembered to bring two umbrellas ! i can start predicting ! we walking through ntuc income building and we saw the " bronze " bulding, CARLTON HOTEL !

We started preparing and Mrs Cheah just went on with her instructions. Met Cheng Ho ( Chairperson of Alumni and Emcee of the Night ) and Anson ( Manager or Person-in-charge ). took their numbers down. the performers started coming in to used the stage for rehearsing. Kept going in and out of the door to check on hazirah and nicole.
Registration was really hectic when people start flooding in. NOTE FLOODING !

The night was great ! we should do this again !

Milestone

In Retrospect , these few weeks are really filled with lots of jostling. Many conflicts arise , yet some remain hidden. If there is a chance to categorise this whole project into two columns. I may choose to do it as two columns, Failures and Success. In all, it might seemed that there are many failures to do this project or event. But i would like to take the rap for my team , my councillors. I feel that it may be all my fault.....

Troubled

it all started with a conversation. it was dark but there were streaks of light passing through the cracks of the curtain. that conversation inspired me to be a excos. the cool and suave image of an exco was portrayed by my sister , the previous batch of exco and definitely the bond they have shared among the councillors. It had encouraged me to strike for the best position in council but what i didnt expect was the hard work i had to put in. Not forget that there was no such thing called a manual. I strive hard to make my team , the best and the council a wonderful group to be in. i was pounded by all sorts of difficulty and stress just added to the weight i had to carry. after a short while , i feel really burden. Burden by the thoughts of just pulling the weight of the exco. i dare not say that they have yet to put in their efforts. i can only sadly say due to my poor observation only the welfare has been doing their part. Maybe because i helped them dreamed. maybe because the dreams i had put in them has been realised. Maybe i am asking too much of the discipline. I feel that i have failed. I just feel tired. i just want to throw everything aside and rest. All i ask for is just one moment to rest. Is that too much to ask?

Going out....

I think that my life is pretty full of stuf but more of it is official stuff. Instead of going out with my friends. I am going for a dinner later due to the school. Haiz are these the very reasons i am living for ? Anyway, i am not looking foward to eating in the outdoors in my blazer and stuff. I think i will sweat and sweat more. if it rains , i just hope i am sitting in the middle of the big tent i saw them set up. *cross fingers* But i am sure yeyu will make it better. anyway off to bath so i will make it in time.

YES!

Just finish editing the new blogskin's codes and successfully changing my blogskin. Feeling pretty light today so i picked a light colour. Many things happen during this period of time. The time when we actually took over to the start of the preparation of the teachers' day. Stress falls on everyone of us , but how many of us actually understand the point of it. how many of us still goes on not taking any notice of it. maybe i think too much. the dafulter needs a rest. he is tired of all the others' scoldings , critism and ungratefulness of his work and thoughts. he feels that he is not wanted and he just wants to sit at one corner to cry it all out. he doesnt know how to face this. he knows that a soft side will make others unsure of him. he doesnt dare to shed a tear. he really wants to just stop and drop dead.he is tired and doesnt want to pull all the others' weight anymore. he wants to stop .......